oh what a weekend…
This weekend has been difficult, in so many ways. Saturday morning, I found out that the Super for the complex had died. He had the same cancer (Glioblastoma) that my Dad had. I remember when I first heard that Johnny had cancer, it was about six months after my Dad was diagnosed. My Dad had an operation to remove the first tumor, six months later, Johnny had the same operation. My Dad went through Chemo and radiatiion…so did Johnny.
Before my Dads second operation, he had a vehicle accident, which ended up getting him to stop driving (or at least he was supposed to stop driving). A couple months ago, Johnny came to do some work in my apartment. He seemed to be doing well. Even a month ago he was walking through the complex…About 2 weeks ago, Johnny had a severe vehicle accident, he was then confined to a wheelchair. I just knew that things were going to go down from there. Last week, Johnny passed away in his home.
About 7 months ago, Dad died. I am still not dealing well with that. I know that so well, because this weekend, I fell apart. Johnny has two children, his youngest just graduated high school. I know exactly how she feels. I went to the store to get a card to send to Johnnys wife, half the cards made me cry, half had me saying “I am glad that noone sent that to me”, they sounded so insincere. I have come to the conclusion that I cant by sympathy cards. How young both these men were, my Dad was 64 and Johnny was 49!
This is a time when my faith is both strengthened and in question. This is one of those times. I am trying to remain strong, but I dont understand why they were taken so early in their lives. They have so much that they will miss. My son came up to me after church with an envelope, he said it was a letter to grandpa (my dad), My Dads birthday is in 2 days,
I miss you so much Dad.
I miss you, Dad.
This is Johnny, I have to say, that I think this man lived a Christ centered life, and that made he a wonderful man.
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July 10th, 2006 at 2:18 am
Dawn I’m so very sorry for both the loss of your father and that of Johnny coming at a time when the open wound of your father’s death was just torn open all over again.
I have a suggestion if you cannot find a card to send that is suitable. Consider writing a personal note on some lovely notepaper. Something from your heart … and I guarantee that it won’t sound insincere! His family will appreciate it … and you will be glad that you did it.
HUGS
I finally did find a card. I dont know what it said though, I just remember that it was a pretty poem and not to cornny
~ Dawn
July 10th, 2006 at 9:18 am
You could use most of what you wrote in this post as a personal note, and I’m sure his family would appreciate it. You’ve brought tears to my eyes, just feeling your grief. As MM said, it just tore open a fresh wound for you, so it’s bound to have hit you extra hard. God bless you.
Thank you, I am going to talk with his daughter if I see here.
~ Dawn.
July 11th, 2006 at 6:28 am
Girl - I’m soooo very sorry about this. I hate that we all have to die - it’s just no fun. And it’s so very sad.
I’ll send you my warm thoughts and hope that you can find some solace. Be there for that little girl - she’ll need someone who has had experience on how to deal with the grief - especially at such a young age.
Hugs and may you find the right inner peace - maybe make your own card or something - you’re so talented with creativity - it would mean so much more too.
Thank you
~ Dawn
July 11th, 2006 at 5:36 pm
Thinking of you today.
Thank you
~ Dawn